Saturday, November 28, 2009

There's Always be an End..

            │ 朋友 │
             ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄
            ____↓____
   ________________│ 喜欢 │
   │          ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄
___ _↓____       ___ ↓___
| 暗恋 │   _____│ 表白 │_______
 ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄   │    ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄  ____↓____
____↓____ 1____↓____   ______ │恋爱 │______
│ 时间久 ││避而不见│   │    ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄   │
 ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄  ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄ ____↓____ ____ ↓____  _↓___
  │      │    │日久无趣││移情别恋│ │结婚│
____↓____ _____↓  ̄ ̄ │ ̄ ̄  ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄  ̄   ̄│ ̄ ̄
│ 痛苦 ││ 痛苦│ _ ↓_____ __↓____  ___↓___
 ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄  ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄ │ 痛苦 ││ 痛苦 ││ 痛苦│
  │     │    ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄  ̄ ̄│ ̄ ̄  ̄ ̄│ ̄
____↓____ _ ___↓____ _ ___↓____ _ ___↓____ _ ___↓____
│ 结束 ││ 结束 ││ 结束 ││ 结束 ││ 结束 │

Sunday, August 23, 2009

男孩也好女孩也好,一起看看幾米的讀白吧......

(copy-paste from an e-mail...)


1.很清楚的知道她不合適自己,可是更確定的是他不會主動說分手。

他只是耗著等著,直到有一天女生自己受不了忽冷忽熱、若即若離的態度,

或是等到年華老去不得不下決定時,自己選擇離開。

妳的主動離開,我沒有負心,反而是尊重與成全妳的決定。



2. 半年後發現,他居然可以跟一個只認識三個月的女生步入禮堂,

令她晴天霹靂,才明白他不是不想結婚,不是真的不婚主義者,

說穿了只是他不想跟妳結婚。

八年的愛情長跑比不上三個月的感情。



3. 這位故事中的男生是我的朋友,現在也已經結婚半年。

當他聽到劉若英的「後來」,居然會無法克制的流眼淚,

想起的是他交往八年的前任女友。

為什麼會難過,因為妻子身上有著前任女友的影子,

他才明白其實他喜歡的就是這種類型的女孩。



4. 可是人往往很矛盾,

喜歡她的倔強與有性格,卻受不了她的嬌縱。

喜歡她的落落大方,卻受不了她的朋友一堆;

你愛她的小家碧玉,就不要怪她不夠大方;

你愛她的活潑大方,就不要批評她像花蝴蝶一樣。

戀愛談的愈長,結婚的可能性就愈低,

所以有時候戀愛的長度與結婚的可能性成反比。



5. 喜新厭舊是人性,日子久了,會結婚不是為了愛情,而是責任感的驅使。

婚後的他才慢慢的發現,當時的那一段感情其實不是不愛,

是時間太久了太長了,把愛情給磨掉了,

再遇到另一個女孩點燃了愛情的火苗,星星之火足以遼源,

把枯竭已久的愛情給予生命,所以倉促的決定結婚。

等到真的結婚後,愛情降了溫,才慢慢的發現其實妻子的身上

有著許多前任女友的影子,他比較愛的人其實還是前任女友,

可是他娶的卻不是她。

這樣的情節不知道是不是也在別處同樣上演著?



6. 學生時代的愛情很單純,出社會以後總想等工作穩定以後再結婚,

工作穩定以後又想等有一點積蓄買車子、買房子以後再結婚,

等著等著,等到愛情被時光給消磨,等到第三者介入點燃

了對方心中激情的火苗,乾柴烈火不可收拾以後,

曾經在年少一起織夢的理想全都抵擋不了新鮮感的激情,

所以琵琶別抱,到最後步入禮堂的都不是在一起同甘共苦、

共同經歷過寒、暑假,等當兵的人。



7. 所以奉勸各位女孩子,

如果對方真的是你想結婚的對象,不要想著有房子有車子有金子,

有了一切再結婚。

現實是,等他有了一切,他的身價暴漲是有價值的單身貴族,

他必需要面臨的是更多的誘惑,妳長久以來的等待與年輕時許

下的山盟海誓都難以抵擋誘惑排山倒海的來。

就像我現在若不嫁他,非得等到他有車子有房子還有存款時再結婚,

那時新娘有極高的可能不是我。

因為要等到什麼都有還要幾年?

有能力的男人就像酒愈久愈香醇,女人則像麵包一樣有賞味期限,

青春是女人的天敵。

如果我是他,等到我三十五歲,什麼都有是個有上千萬身價的黃金單身漢,

我並不需要一個很有能力而年過三十的女人來幫襯我,

我寧可選個如花似玉,年輕貌美的女生,也許沒有什麼工作能力,

至少發揮了賞心悅目的功能,一個真正有能力的男人,

不會在乎一個女人是否能在他的財富上加乘。

遇上對的人,莫等待莫蹉跎,也許沒有房子沒有車子,

只要他認真上進,他就是張有潛力的積優股,

早點進場獲利更高。




8. 也提醒各位男士,

如果對方真的是你想好好疼愛的女人,別讓她等太久,

有她一起陪你奮鬥應該是很美好的一件事除非你心中有其他的想法,

否則別讓愛情等太久,把真愛都磨掉了!雖然聽起來很殘忍,

但身邊的家人朋友都有類似的例子。



真愛,就不要等,除非是不想結婚......

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Juzt don't wanna stop..

L0V3 isn’t a perfect match of both 100%..but a pure crystallization of each 50%... =)


What hurts the most..

MusicBox is the Coffin of Love… =/


Bury the locked MuzicBox full of Ornaments of our Love by the shore, with its key casted into the sea..go Let go… =)


the Moon blocks the Sun..the Earth blocks the Moon..then what blocks the Earth?..“Human darkness” does it… =\ ~


He can help Her to carry, but He can’t help Her to let go..Ur still gonna do it Urself… =)


世上没有放不下の东西..只有拿不起の东西… =


若世上没有拿不起东西..那只有不肯接受已失去事实… =|


世上没有真正拥有..只有真正失去… =)


失去的影印叫做恐惧感… =]


Juzt wanna continue..

You should have understood since the end begins, shouldn't you?..
There you go..now you know…

If this world is colorless, we'll never know what's beauty so that v won't reject ugliness..

Wayless..
The way it's supposed to be..just let it be...
The past will never last..

Shine in the fame..it's a Game...
your Voice, my Summer Soundtrack...

Bring on more BeaT in the DanCe..Let it hit the FlooR n ur SenSe… =)
Bring on da Beat..Gimme da Heat~ =) --> Misz da Zound in da Houze ;) ~


ZomBie..WereWolf..or VamPire? =)
CooKie..LolliPop..or GuM? =)
Black..White..or Red? =)
BulLet..RaZor..or RoPe? =]

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Every 14th..

◎日記情人節(Diary Day)114
在這一天,情侶們會互贈足夠紀錄一整年戀愛情事的日記本,以此象徵兩人將攜手走過未來一年,並留下更多美好回憶。


◎華崙亭情人節(Valentine's Day)214
西元3世紀時,羅馬皇帝為避免已婚男子不願離家當兵,發布了一道禁止結婚的法令,但華崙亭主教依舊違背皇帝旨意,秘密為青年人舉行婚禮。他因此遭到監禁, 並於西元273214日死在獄中。後人為了紀念他,將他殉難這天訂為「華侖亭日」,後來便成為世人耳熟能詳的情人節。在西洋傳統裡年輕人是華崙亭日的 主角,他們在這個節日裡鄭重其事地為戀人選擇禮物、鮮花,以表達自己的愛慕之情。痴情的少女則會按古老傳說,在華崙亭日前一晚把月桂樹葉放在枕頭上,盼望 自己在夢中同自己的心上人相會。在美國,華崙亭日不僅是年輕人的節日,親人朋友間也可以互送小禮物,以表達感情、增進友誼。許多商家都特別出售裝飾成心形 的巧克力糖、系著緞帶的紅玫瑰,以及鬱金香花束等禮品,而各式各樣的情人卡片更令人眼花撩亂。對許多亞洲女子而言這一天顯得格外重要,因為儘管文化上較為 傳統保守,社會價值觀一般已普遍接受女孩子在這天主動向心儀的對象示好。


◎白色情人節(White Day)314
西方並沒有所謂「白色情人節」的傳統,在東方,214日女孩送男孩禮物表達情意之後,如果對方也有同樣的好感或情意,就會在314日回送女孩一份情人 禮物,表示彼此心心相印;如果男孩對女孩沒感覺,只要刻意忽略這個日子,便算是委婉的拒絕。現在情人節由誰主動送禮已經不重要了,只要有一方在214 收到異性送的禮物表達愛意,他或她在314日「白色情人節」這一天就會選擇是否有所回應;而對已經在一起的愛侶來說,這一天則是回贈對方情人節禮物的日 子。


◎黑色情人節(Black Day) 414日(韓國)
「黑色情人節」就是屬於單身貴族們的情人日。在前兩個月他們或許既沒收到甜蜜小禮物,也沒人可以送巧克力,但414日這天,大家共聚一堂,彼此鼓勵、加 油打氣,藉此消除形單影隻的落寞感。名為黑色情人節,在這一天,打算過節的人會讓自己生活在百分百的黑色世界裡,穿黑色套裝、黑帽子、黑皮鞋,吃黑豆製成 的麵條,喝咖啡也不加奶精,享受黑咖啡的苦澀原味。


◎《4/14 橘色情人節》 (台灣)
在台灣比較少人知道的橘色情人節,是讓在214日送告白巧克力與在314日回送巧克力回覆的男女雙方,再次確認對方心意的日子。
414日橘色情人節那天,男女雙方會各自準備一份橘色的禮物互贈,以表達再次確定對方的心意,且希望這段感情能長久下去。


◎黃色與玫瑰情人節(Yellow and Rose Day)514
如果已經到了5月,你的情事還是沒有任何進展,在這一天穿著黃色襯衫或黃色套裝,吃黃色咖哩飯,就是告訴大家「I am still available」的最好暗示。春日融融,將黃色穿在身上,也相當符合季節氣氛。5月是玫瑰發芽的時節,氣候宜人適合出遊,因此許多情侶都選在這天相偕 到戶外踏青,所以514日也有「玫瑰情人節」之稱。在玫瑰日送人紅玫瑰是傾訴愛意;送白玫瑰花表示仍猶豫未決;若送上一束黃玫瑰,就是說再見了。


◎親吻情人節(Kiss Day)614
這是一個屬於成雙成對戀人的重要節日,在這一天,情侶們不必再害羞,可以大大方方地用親吻表達對對方的愛意。


◎銀色情人節(Silver Day)714
銀色情人節,是把你的意中人帶回家給老爸老媽認識,或介紹給其他你所尊敬的長輩的好機會。當然,這一天的全部開銷,都由這些「可愛的長者」買單。銀色情人節也是愛侶互贈銀製禮品、飾物的日子。


◎綠色情人節(Green Day)814
酷熱難耐的夏日午后,不妨和你的另一半作一趟涼爽而清新的森林之旅,盡情享受戶外大自然,度過健康而愉悅的一天。還在尋覓愛侶的人,可以參加Soju〈韓國綠牌薯酒〉派對,度過喧鬧的室內綠色情人節。


◎音樂情人節與相片情人節(Music Day & Photo Day)914
音樂情人節這一天是舉辦大型社交活動、輕歌漫舞的日子,也是將你的心上人介紹給朋友、同事認識的好機會。單身一族,更可以藉此機會看看活動現場有沒有自己中意的對象。許多情侶喜歡在這天就著蔚藍晴朗的天空合影,所以914日又稱為「相片情人節」


◎葡萄酒情人節(Wine Day)1014
這一天戀人們輕啜葡萄美酒,慶祝充滿詩意的秋天。通常小倆口會選擇在浪漫且別緻的餐廳裡共進晚餐,然後聊聊彼此對未來的規畫,以及共同的目標等話題。


◎橙色情人節與電影情人節(Orange Day Movie day)1114
電影情人節這一天情侶們可以連趕兩場電影,或許先看一部緊張刺激的動作發洩壓力,然後再來一部感人肺腑的浪漫愛情片互拭淚水。看完兩人也該補充水分了,來杯健康的百分百柳橙汁吧!單身的人這一天也要喝杯柳橙汁。


◎擁抱情人節(Hug Day)1214
這天想和你的情人抱多久都可以,在公開的場合擁抱,向世人宣告你倆的愛意,也讓寒冷的冬天變得格外溫馨





Tuesday, June 2, 2009

喜欢..爱...

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗?

喜歡咫尺千里。



當你喜歡一個人時,你想和他在一起,因為他會帶給你快樂;
離開後,你會想念,想著想著就會笑,然後繼續你平靜的生活,
並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你一個人時,你想和他在一起,那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得,
怕他受委屈,怕他不能好好照顧自己;
離開後,你也會想念,想著想著歎一口氣,'不知他現在過的怎樣?'
然後你繼續你平靜的生活,希望他早日回到你身邊。



喜歡的人在你眼中是天使,無所不能,他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

的人在你眼中是孩子,傻傻的,你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來,
只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。



你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你,然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人;

你會希望陪在你的人身邊,
看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子,
你會微笑,會覺得好幸福。



喜歡的人傷害了你,你會生氣,
並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他;

的人傷害了你,你只會獨自傷心,因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他,
你憂傷地微笑著,看著他的眼睛,一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨,
你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡,那一刻,你也是幸福的。



你可以同時喜歡很多人,你會希望和很多人在一起,
但也許很多年後你才發現,原來你的就只有那麼一個,
就那麼一個,怎麼都不會變,你以為把他忘記了,
其實只是忙的沒空想起而已,



對於你喜歡的人,你關注的是他的優點;

對於你的人,你關注的是他的缺點,
並且,那些缺點如果無關原則的話,它們在你眼裡是可愛的,
獨一無二的。



喜歡其實只有一紙之隔,
任何都從喜歡開始,當有天你突然發現,
喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美,
而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨,
你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比,
你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情,不知道是不是應該祝賀你,
總之,你的感情昇華了

——

仰慕不是,甚至不是喜歡
當你對一個人只有
仰慕之情時,
你們在一起便失去了和諧。


有人說
一個人很累,的確是,因為你想為他承擔,
可是
喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於,


當你和
的人在一起時,你的感覺就像回家了!





Wednesday, May 20, 2009

let go..

Let go yourself before being let go by somebody else..
Don't let people let you go, do let yourself go..
There's no point looking back...

Have you accepted the fact and found your way out and move on?..

Sunday, May 17, 2009

dizzynes II..

i'm "dizzy" again....
the rest of them already down..
left me alone..without her...
she will never know...
i've been doing what i'm not suppose to do for us...
keeping cool..never ever care about her..stay away from her newz...
i dono what else to do...
maybe being "dizzy" is one of the solution...
seeing people down..needa take care of them...
it sounds fun..but it's so damn empty...
JD so what...RL so what...
the most important thing is being happy...
being happy with person that you want to happy with...
still the same words: seeing you being happy with the person u deserve is my happiness...
i don't care anymore about your life..
i don care about my life withou you either..as long as you're happy...
take care...see ya...
nitezzZZ....






(but i miss you..so much...)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

14th..

it's fourteen..again..
every fourteen..is the anniversary..
it sounds sad..but memorable...
recalling the miss..
remembering the beauty of the broken...

it was three months ago..

it was several years ago...
for you, i've been solo..
for me, you did let go...

and you really do move on..
without me, you carry on...
thanks for listening..
sorry for forgetting...

you've made it..
you're worth it..
you deserve it...
i mean it...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

love story..


Only white horse deserves prince..
Only prince deserves princess..
Only the princess deserves the glass heels...






Monday, May 11, 2009

-- エモの王子 --


the space without me..

my last word to u..was a smile…

is this the way it's suppose to be?



it ends with no reason..since it started without any reason..

because true love loves with no reason…



no one could remind me of u..since u’re the only one
...


it feels much heavier to pick it back again..



tears of heart..hurts more than bleeding…



if i were to travel back to the past..
i’d rather choose to have amnesia…

start it all over at this moment..
past can’t change the present..
present changes the future...



figure.out.that.it.doesn’t.work.out
..


u’r.d.1.sd.u’ve.ntg.2.sy.2.me..u.sd:”like.always”…it.is.hw.u.let.tis.hapen

i.nvr.let.it.b.so..as.im.stl.waitin.4.u.2.b.d.1.u.used.2.b.whn.v.1st.met



tired.of.loving.&.being.loved..

at.least..left.a.lil.strength.to.wait.for.u.to.come.back...



ur.change.doesnt.suit.u…

do.remain.the.same.you.n.me..which.we.used.to.be…



nevermind..never.mine... let.it.be..forget.it...
if.there.is.something,to.be.remembered?

left.nothing..but.memories…



we’ll never get back to how we were anymore..
it’s the decision u’ve made..it’s the word u’ve said…



i'm tired..i've.surrendered...

u need some time to let go and being regret of what u've let go
...


own nothing..owe nothing..left empty..take a leave..

this is the way it's supposed to be..let it be...



it's no longer the same..it's changed...

unhealable..unrecoverable..unreturnable...



it was long ago and far away but it never disappears...

don’t wanna dream about all the things that never were...



as long as u're happy..everything is worth it...



only people who knows how to appreciate
deserves what he/she got…

how much you deserve depends on
how much you appreciate…



醒来了..梦散了...你我都走散了...

never dream about al the things that never were...



need no more time...it ends up speechless..

remain silence or just remain a smile then face down...

timeless..speechless..silence…



kept others’ story on track..being helpless on my own…



this is what u want our story to be...

the song is just our story being put into melody...



so near..yet so far way...but it never disappears...

let it go, so that u can go ahead...jz let it go...



the forever is the last thing I give you…

it’s so near..but you’re not here…



i lost..u scared.. i left and marked a full stop to our memories…

bring on the tear..welcome the pain…

it’s better of this way…

















エモの王子
为何你亲手放走了..
我们被淘汰の故事...

dizziness..

although we are moving on now..but..i'm still thinking of you..always..always when i get "dizzy", i'm thinking of you always..thinking of how we met..thinking what we did together..thinking of the tine we have spent together every night on msn or sms...although everytime i act cool and act don't care in front of people of even in front of you, but my heart is still with you..always..i can't forget about you..i don't know why, there is always something that remind me of you..when i see your msn pm, i always thinking that it's about us..but..until now i'm still not sure about it...the hidden message behind it..are you still thinking of me? i do...do you still remember how we met each other?it sounds funny for somebody else, but it's special for me..no matter what i do, what i try to get rid of the block between us, but it always get back to me again the feeling...even if i've been trying to let go of you, but i fail to get rid of the feelings...it's so familiar..it's like the first time i met you..we've missed up a lot that we haven't done...i still remember your smile...i still remember your shyness...i still remember you cuteness...i still remember all...really all...i can't forget it...what's why it end up who am i today...i still have the feelings..it's still really fresh and really besides me when i'm "dizzy"...where are you?..why can't i get back the 'you' that you used to be...have been struggling alone..never want you to know..what's why i'm acting cool and careless in front of you...actually...several time i have found the way to move on, but i didn't do it..because i always believe that you will be back some day..believing you will the one you used to be when we first met, where we used to keep in touch every day and night...can i get back the moment we have been through?..the angel can't answer my answer...i've been waiting for nothing...i've been nothing to keep waiting...but it ends up really nothing...is it true?.i'm not sure....i still thinking of you..everytime i try to find you, but i don't have the courage...please tell me how to make it, how to do it, ow to get it, how...i've totally no idea what i've been doing..but what i know is i'm doing what is best for you...i don't care about myself, as long as you're happy, that's good enough althoung the happiness you have might not belong to each other...i know...i don't know...i just write whatever in my heart and ming when i'm "dizzy" right now...but..i'm sure my feeling on you is real and still the same..of you are willing to accepect me back, i'm always there for you...there are many temptation around me, but i never accept and receive..because i've been thinking that you're the one that you used to be..and you will be...SMILE..don't forget what we have done, what we have been through...it's a nice memory to keep you there in my heart...moving on, sound good, but it seems to be impossible to fulfill...no matter what, i'm still waiting..until the day you and me have totally for get, then i would be the one i used to be anymore...i'm still here, do you know?.you have forgotten?...i'm still here for you...to wanna see you always smile... ...

Thursday, May 7, 2009

May..


bring on the rain..
welcome the pain..
it sounds a lil insane..
but the feeling still the same..

would today be the day?.
to tell what i'm suppose to say..
looking back what i need to pay..
for what's i've lost in the month of May..



Monday, May 4, 2009

lost..


i lost..you scared..
i left and marked a full stop to our memories…



Friday, May 1, 2009

-- SEASONLESS --


scorpiology :: the.season.of.scorpiemo -- 忆寞蝎座の寂节


wat.would.be.ur.1st.word.when.i.meet.u.back...



walking.in.the.snow.with.heavy.heart.&.freezing.hands..

what.i.see.at.the.back.are.just.my.own.foot.prints...



what.gonna.do.. doing.it..without.talking..

without.thinking.much..without.expecting.much...



u.are.not.heartless..u.just.haven't.opened.ur.heart...


i'll.show.u.how.does.it.feel..if.u.willing.to.open.up.ur.heart...

smile.wide.wide...



u're.not.the.same.anymore...

it's.not.fair..i.should.have.got.what.i've.paid.off..but.it.didn't...



don't give up ur smile..there is still a way...

follow the light..enlighten your heart…



the way to the lightness..the key to ur heart…

don't give up ur smile..the light will show u the way...



still remember wat v used to do evrytm..

i keep ur smile inside the glass bottle



wandering..wondering…

passionless..appreciationless…

missing..mourning…



幸福或辛苦.只在于珍惜或放弃...



时间给不了我们空间.空间却给了我们距离..

思念是时间的实验品.失败了是因为放弃了...



钓到了美人鱼..才发现.大家来自不同的世界



熟悉的声音不被倾听.而陌生的声音却尽听..

再也听不到那泪滴



找寻我们从前之间的归属感..

不想让你看到流过的血迹…



寻回以往的归属感..

只因为你的笑容

你的笑容是唯一宗旨^^



偏体鳞.有你而美



我懂了.不說了.味淡了.梦远了...

.离开了.放手了.後悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋卷着..要怎么停呢



渐渐放下会走更远

确定总是比决定难



不是因为做了太多..而是没收获的在做

是丢弃了回头看他,.他却没有回头看你



是你要和他分离..离开几步后你又回头看他,

他却没有回头看..眼见他渐渐远离你



这是我给你的空间

不是我不想要 只是我不敢想 又害怕再失去

谢谢琴房里孤独的钢琴陪我度过情人节 唯有它不伤人...

琴人节快乐








regret always comes after an unappreciated loss…

dun throw it away easily if u feel someday u’ll pick it back…


-- 忆寞 --


回忆の寂寞 = 忆寞 = Eの寂MO...



来往人群背影中寻找遗失的熟悉影子..

等待已经消失无踪的空白...



周围的人被酒精及音乐酝酿他们的陶醉..

只有一人在旁被自己的'忆寞'灌醉...



仁说咖啡会延长夜晚的岁月..

但无辜的它不小心的也把遥远回忆の寂寞与思念给唤醒了...



听说咖啡和啤酒是天敌..夜晚是它们的争夺品...

说雨天是夜晚的情敌..互相争夺我们思念の心情...



其实月球并不存在我们の夜空..

它一直守候在它自己孤独の外太空..

原来在视线里的都不属于我们の世界...

如此空白の月空.既虚无.又虚空...



我并不是什么街头艺术人..只是一支颓废的忆寞族..

既没出息又活在自己の忆术世界

咖啡.越喝越颓废好想听自己弹晴。。。



夜间一个人到了琴房,独自在月光下弹奏洁白的钢琴。



仁说情天不适合谈琴..钢晴是个锁爱的工具...

弹奏秋季的月曲..纪念失去的心晴..

怀疑还能否回忆不再谈晴..只在雨天下弹琴...





怎麽了.累了.说好的.约定呢.

我懂了.不说了.淡了.. 我都还记得..

不等.我错.离开.放手了.后悔了.

在不.如何再继续呢



原来你还没放下来..要如何拿得起未来...

也许大家已经好累..再也没力气为了谁



缘分..不再珍惜.就会被放弃

我不配..这感觉已经不对.我无力再挽回

给我一个寂节的时间..请告诉我.暂停算不算放弃



其实.大家都没变..只是季节变了

凋谢了..落叶了..冷淡了..无味了

怎麼了.谁累了.不弹了.不躲了.說好的永远.

我懂了.不說了..

离开了.遥远了.白等了.放手了.後悔.

你没有不舍.只有一个人还记得...



(其实.大家都没变..只是季节变了

凋谢了..落叶了..冷淡了..无味了..流雪了

怎麼了.谁累了.不躲了.說好的.永远..

我懂了.不說了.不弹了.梦远了.

白等了...离开了.放手了.後悔了.

只有一个人还记得...)



也许我只懂我不要的是什么.都忘了我要的是什么..

也许眼前的是该珍惜的



连小丑都emo…emoの小丑变成了e-寞术师

魔术越变越寂寞笑了之后不要记得我...

刮风这天.我试过躲在面具里偷偷地在哭泣.

发掘了不能的秘密..

魔术师抢我生意.蝙蝠侠那条lala靠我才票房冠军...










-- TIMELESS --

countable.undone..uncountable.to.be.done


how.could.i.undo.what.i.have.done..
should.i.get.the.undone.to.be.done…
what.i.got.in.the.end.is.none…



i'm.out.of.my.mind.for.getting.u.out.of.my.mind…
i'm.missing.what.i've.missed..i've.missed.what.i'm.missing...
i’m.not.forgiving.myself.for.forgiving.myself...


we’ve.been.expecting.too.much..in.the.end.we.experience.none...


i.don't.make.u.choose.it..but.i.do.make.you.feel.no.regret.of.choosing.it..or..regret.of.losing.it…


sunday.is.for.the.sun..monday.is.not.for.the.moon.though..
there’s.no.moonday.in.people’s.heart.to.remember.it…


answerless…guessless
worthless.wishing,waiting.&.wondering...it.feels.as.far.as.skin.&.blood...bloodless


wordless…timeless …chanceless -- sameless
speechless.meet.as.already.sameless…foreverless…futureless


spiritless…expressionless
feeless…senseless
appreciationless…hopeless


u.shouldn’t.have.come.to.my.life..
i.should.have.let.go.the.kite.for.its.own.sky..
maybe.we.shouldn’t.have.hold.on.so.tide…


whenever.wherever..however,no.longer.whoever…still.remember?

once.never.appreciate..it.depreciates.forever…



the.firmer.you hold,.the.more.you.lose.from.the.sides.of. your.fist…

it's.unholdable,.just.feelable.on.your.both.palms..so.abstract.it.is..so.just.let.it.go


near and far..


so near..yet so far away...but it never disappears...

let it go, so that u can go ahead...jz let it go...




Monday, April 6, 2009

-- EXPRESSIONLESS --


for reading purpose..for art of words..for heart of blood...



who has the loudest earphone -- i wanna blast off my ear to stay awake


everything should be made as simple as possible..but not simpler…


hit me, but don't hurt me -- bruise me, but don't break me


gimme sugar & creamer for a coffee -- gimme poison & pill for a relief


i wish i could hear the gun shot when i put it to my head and pull the trigger


you have a gun without a bullet -- but i have both without the trigger -- see who dies first


i: "where are you? how are you?" -- you: "who r you?" -- i: "... ..."


satan turns love into curse..God turns curse into love..u turn both into hurt and blood…


God, why did u create hurt? -- HE didn't, hurt appears when love disappears -- same thing goes to darkness and lightness…


everybody is losing the sense of love..this world is losing the smell of passion..senseless towards everything...


everybody is losing the sense of love..my body is losing the smell of blood..senseless towards my five senses...but sixth…


the world is so senseless until the word 'emo' comes to describe it


being senseless is more than being bored..being emo is more than being senseless...


i don't care, but i'm not careless -- i don't sense, so i'm senseless...


life is about problem solving -- for every problem, there is a solution -- do make no mistake


after pulling the trigger..i wish i could tell u the story of my entire life when it flashes through my mind…


you can get many shadows under your knee..but you just can get one shadow in a mirror -- it's the soul and the only one…


one shadow for one light source..no shadow for infinite light sources..infinite shadows for no light source…amazing?


number 13 is the lucky number to get unlucky…


coffee gives me 30 hours a day -- everything's just the matter of time -- i'm controlling the time instead of being controlled


listening to loud emosic does the same work as coffee -- coffee spoils body, yet loud emosic spoils soul...


i'm running out of time..i'm rushing out of my mind..it's time for my mind to shine…


666+13x13=835 ; 8+3+5=16 ; 1+6=7 -- God's perfect number is constructed from beast's and unlucky number -- amazing?


when i'm busy, i'm just physically occupied -- my heart is still fully occupied by emptiness...


shut your eyes, cut your wrist -- hold your breath, listen to your heart beat -- enjoy ending your life...


life is a sweet nightmare, we're gonna wake up either in the heaven or hell...


take a breath, just another step to the door -- take a walk, just a few steps on the corridor to the exit of life...


let's gather together and start feeling lonely..throwing a lonely party...


i've missed the last train back, i've missed it that brings me to the past...
i've missed the last train that brings me back to the past...


emo lovers cry for hurt..blind lovers cry for love...


please put this to my head and pull the trigger since i'm the one who causes my life so...


crying is just to test if i'm totally senseless..bleeding is just to test if i'm totally dead…yes I am...


i thought i've completely let go the old me, but when i listen to the music, it makes me weak inside again -- when you're gone…


you didn't lie..you just never tell the truth...


he is already senseless..don't expect him to sense anything…who can reactivate this living dead...


planning is bringing the future to the present and do something about it now…


rejecting something you deserve is not foolish..but accepting something you don't deserve is...


showering.with.my.own.blood.to.clean.off.the.pain.outside -- drinking.my.own.blood.to.cure.the.pain.inside


black.blood -- i.wish.i.was.a.vampire -- but,i.am.a.vemopire
vampire.is.my.savior -- he.sucks.away.my.blood.and.my.hurt..
i'm.just.a.newborn.vemopire -- emo.kinda.vampire..


razor.is.the.weapon.to.shave.away.your.life.and.to.take.away.my.life
if.razor.can't.shave.away.what.u.hate,just.use.it.to.take.away.your.life


a.normal.mirror.just.can.show.my.present.image -- where.could.i.find.a.mirror.that.show.our.past.images.?


i.wish.there.is.a.planet.with.the.characteristic.of.a.mirror,
so.we.could.watch.our.past.through.telescope.everynight..


i.wish.to.go.trillions.light.years.away.to.the.space.to.catch.back.
the.light.of.the.past.to.catch.up.what.i've.missed..


maybe.time.is.the.medicine..music.is.the.balm...
pill.is.the.pain.killer..razor.is.the.hurt.eraser..


live.to.die.others.or.die.to.live.others..


cool.with.me,don't.fool.with.me..
no.pain,no.gain -- no.hurt,no.love..
i'm.gonna.drown.in.my.own.tears...


why.should.i.care.about.u.anymore?.since.u.never.care...


being.senseless.so.that.i.won't.know.what's.the.feeling.of.loosing.all.my.blood.from.my.wrist..


apologize,it's.too.late...re-appreciate,it's.too.fake...you,why.should.i.care.anymore?


u're.gonna.sacrifice.the.sense.towards.love.to.get.rid.of.ur.hurt...don't.call.urself.emo.if.u.can't.be.senseless!


-- u're the champion on top of the world if u can defeat yourself everytime -- believe in what u do -- do what u believe in…


just.go.ahead.and.kill.me.in.my.sleep -- it.doesn't.hurt.when.wake.up.in.heaven


"if i put a gun to my head, pull the trigger and kill myself -- do i hear the weapon goes off?"


the world is big enough to challenge your greed..the time is mighty enough to make your heart empty...










PE@CE...

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

-- SENSELESS --


what i've been writing..what we've been thinking...



there's only two ways, moving forward or backward…we can’t stand still as we do so, the time will push us backward from the opposite direction…


i don't make you choose him..but i do make you feel no regret of choosing him…


my heartless romance : my chemical romance -- your biological romance -- our physical romance


once disappear..disappear forever…once lost..lost forever…no more turning point…


i'm not forgiving myself for forgiving myself…


i've forgotten what i've lost..don't even have the gut to give you up…


when you go, don't ever think I'll make you try to stay..when you get back, I'll be off to find another way…


when you go..would u even turn to say: "i don't love u..like i did yesterday…"


i'm not heartless..just senseless…i'm not deaf..just being silent….


if you feel that your life is meaningless..don't kill yourself..do kill the one who caused so…


since you've been disappearing..i've been desperating…since i've been avoiding..you've been pretending either...


once you don't appreciate..it will depreciate…once it depreciates..everything is too late to start over again…


you didn't disappear..it's just that you never appear in my life..even if you're smiling with me right now…


you're my most familiar stranger…


you started it and u over it..but you can't start over it..because it's up to me already…


the latter is meant to be new after the former turns old…


if you love something..you'll have no reason…if you don't..you'll have one thousand and one reasons…


you: "i wasn't there for you when you needed me…" -- i : "you weren't the one you used to be when you're gone..."


i try to take off my skin for a new me..but i fail to turn myself over a new leaf..since you're not in my skin...but heart…


expecting everything..deserves nothing…expecting nothing..deserves anything…


i dream of you when i'm asleep..i think of you when i'm awake..i care for you when i'm alive..i pray for you when i'm adead (but you never tear for me when i'm adead)


life will tell the reason..time will tell the result…life will react for the result..time will repeat for the reaction…


you've been heartless on what i've done for u those days..i've been heartless on what u do for us these days...


she is falling in love..i am loving in fall…


i'm holding your heart..but i'm not owning it…u're holding mine..but u owe me nothing...


before my memory fades away..i wish i could taste the last smell of the broken u gave…


to forget u..i've to focus on whatever i'm doing now…to forgive myself..i've to forget whatever you're doing now…


to forget you..i've to forgive myself…to forgive you..i've to forget myself...


do let go but don't give up..you can find back what you've let go..but you couldn't get back what you've given up...


TIME is the best healer..it could be the best killer either…it heals when you do something..it kills when you do nothing...


you shouldn't have deserved this love since you never serve yours…


i'm out of my mind for getting you out of my mind…


i'm missing what i've missed..i've missed what i'm missing...


thanks to the one who created the shape of love..it's meant to be torn off easily from its top...


it's not about who's better than who..it's just the matter of who deserves who...


he doesn't fall in love again so that she won't be that hurt..but what he's watching now is she with another guy...


people don't give up easily just because they've no confidence to find another one as good as the one they're falling in love with...


people don't afraid of being alone..just afraid of being with many but still feel lonely...


you're my perspiration for i've been doing..you're my inspiration for what i've been writing when you're gone...


her ignorant love has given him an innocent hurt...


i'm not thinking of u..i'm just thinking of my past..but my past was full of you…

i've to think of my future to stop thinking of you...

i'm just thinking of my past..not u…but my past was full of u...


being emo doesn't mean being regret for what i've lost -- but for what i shouldn't have owned what i've lost


being senseless is the only medicine of being emo...


you'll never know how precious it is until you lose it..you'll never know how heavy it feels until you let it go...


you'll never know how bad you've treated people after knowing how good people have treated you...


fishes never cry or they cry all the time...or maybe they're always swimming in their own tears...

fishes.swim.in.their.own.tears -- they.live.in.their.own.hurt


big.eyes.gold.fish.is the most.emo.creature.ever -- no.one.knows.she.has.been.crying.&.living.in.her.own.tears


u.said.our.world.is.small.and.we.could.meet.easily -- yet.it.isn't.that.small.anymore.since.we've.been.avoiding


u:'our.world.IS.small,we.could.meet.again.easily' -- i:'our.worlds.ARE.very.tiny.but.we're.in.different.worlds'


this.tiny.world.will.never.meet.two.persons.from.two.different.worlds -- this.big.world.will.only.meet.two.persons.from.the.same.world


uncontrolled.broken.heart.falls.in.love.easily -- controlled.broken.heart.loves.in.fall.easily


u.never.broken.heart,but.just.empty.heart --

i.never.both,but.u've.just.left.me.a.senseless.heart


why.didn't.u.kill.me.in.my.sleep.in.stead.of.in.my.dream? -- since.it.doesn't.hurt


i'm.giving.up.what.i've.been.giving.out -- it.might.sound.like.an.excuse.but.it.sounds.more.like.a.relief..


i'm.tired.of.giving.out..it's.time.to.give.up…


this.world.is.very.big.&.we're.gonna.heading.to.the.corner.that.we.belong -- if.we're.lucky.enough.to.meet.again.at.the.same.corner.

in.this.big.land,then.there.is.where.our.spark.begins..


after.knowing.she.has.found.the.love.that.she.deserves..he.is.now.glad.&.willing.to.deserve.the.hurt.she.gave.earlier...


he.feels.he.deserves.for.the.hurt.when.he.sees.she.has.gotten.the.love.that.she.deserves…

if.u.have.found.the.love.that.u.deserve,i.deserve.the.hurt.u.gave.earlier...


maybe.appreciation.is.the.lesson..

maybe.giving.up.the.lesson..

maybe.giving.up.is.a.kind.of.appreciation...


never.afraid.of.losing -- just.afraid.of.regretting.for.the.lost..


when.u.went.away..don't.ever.turn.back.to.me.since.it.hurts.him…


i've.been.trying.to.give.up.what.i've.been.giving.out,but.it.always.gets.back.to.me.when.i'm.weak.again...


empty.heart.beats.for.love..emo.heart.bleeds.for.hurt..


being.senseless.so.that.i.won't.know.what's.the.feeling.of.loosing.all.my.blood.from.my.wrist..


it.seems.like.a.freedom.for.u...but.it.could.be.a.kind.of.betrayal.for.somebody...u.never.know.this......


u.never.realise.u're.doing.what.u.said.u'll.never.do...only.time.will.remind.u.what.u've.done.to.someone.&.urself.......


having.the.gut.to.say.sorry.for.ur.fault..why.don't.u've.the.gut.to.restore.what.u've.lost,what.u've.caused...


he.is.falling.in.hurt..she.is.hurting.in.love..they.are.loving.in.fall...

you.are.falling.in.love..i.am.loving.in.hurt..we.are.hurting.in.fall...


'some'.people.heal.their.hurt.with.love...but.'emos'.people.heal.theirs.with.senseless...


the.medicine.of.hurt,being.loved.or.being.senseless -- 'emos'.is.just.a.reversed.spelling.of.'some'...


senseless.heart.is.meant.to.be.senseless.towards.hurt..yet,it.becomes.senseless.towards.love.either...


u're.not.the.one.u.used.to.be.anymore... ur.lie.and.betrayal.is.what.i.saw...


i.don't.make.you.choose.him...but.i.do.make.you.regret.of.losing.him....


you're no different from others -- i thought u'd be the one


we're.just.from.the.different.road.string -- it's.just.the.matter.of.she.deserves.him..

we're.just.from.the.different.road.string -- deserve.better.than.better..


u.left.me.helpless..u.let.me.reckless - my.sky.never.cloudless..u.made.me.senseless -

u.never.seem.to.care..when.i'm.there...


doin.smtg.for.nothing...doin.nothing.for.smtg.. -- u.jz.don.care.anymore..u.din.care.at.all....


done.everythg.bt.gtting.nthing... -- mayb.i.should.stop.doin.it...mayb.should.have.stopped.doin....


no.place.to.hide..there's.a.conner.to.cry..


it.hurts.when.i.think.of.you -- it.bleeds.when.i.see.you


depreciation.comes.after.appreciation









-- to be continue --



Saturday, March 14, 2009

Red..White..Black -- Colorless...

from Valentine's day..to White day..till Black day...

it started on White day itself...