what i've been writing..what we've been thinking...
there's only two ways, moving forward or backward…we can’t stand still as we do so, the time will push us backward from the opposite direction…
i don't make you choose him..but i do make you feel no regret of choosing him…
my heartless romance : my chemical romance -- your biological romance -- our physical romance
once disappear..disappear forever…once lost..lost forever…no more turning point…
i'm not forgiving myself for forgiving myself…
i've forgotten what i've lost..don't even have the gut to give you up…
when you go, don't ever think I'll make you try to stay..when you get back, I'll be off to find another way…
when you go..would u even turn to say: "i don't love u..like i did yesterday…"
i'm not heartless..just senseless…i'm not deaf..just being silent….
if you feel that your life is meaningless..don't kill yourself..do kill the one who caused so…
since you've been disappearing..i've been desperating…since i've been avoiding..you've been pretending either...
once you don't appreciate..it will depreciate…once it depreciates..everything is too late to start over again…
you didn't disappear..it's just that you never appear in my life..even if you're smiling with me right now…
you're my most familiar stranger…
you started it and u over it..but you can't start over it..because it's up to me already…
the latter is meant to be new after the former turns old…
if you love something..you'll have no reason…if you don't..you'll have one thousand and one reasons…
you: "i wasn't there for you when you needed me…" -- i : "you weren't the one you used to be when you're gone..."
i try to take off my skin for a new me..but i fail to turn myself over a new leaf..since you're not in my skin...but heart…
expecting everything..deserves nothing…expecting nothing..deserves anything…
i dream of you when i'm asleep..i think of you when i'm awake..i care for you when i'm alive..i pray for you when i'm adead (but you never tear for me when i'm adead)
life will tell the reason..time will tell the result…life will react for the result..time will repeat for the reaction…
you've been heartless on what i've done for u those days..i've been heartless on what u do for us these days...
she is falling in love..i am loving in fall…
i'm holding your heart..but i'm not owning it…u're holding mine..but u owe me nothing...
before my memory fades away..i wish i could taste the last smell of the broken u gave…
to forget u..i've to focus on whatever i'm doing now…to forgive myself..i've to forget whatever you're doing now…
to forget you..i've to forgive myself…to forgive you..i've to forget myself...
do let go but don't give up..you can find back what you've let go..but you couldn't get back what you've given up...
TIME is the best healer..it could be the best killer either…it heals when you do something..it kills when you do nothing...
you shouldn't have deserved this love since you never serve yours…
i'm out of my mind for getting you out of my mind…
i'm missing what i've missed..i've missed what i'm missing...
thanks to the one who created the shape of love..it's meant to be torn off easily from its top...
it's not about who's better than who..it's just the matter of who deserves who...
he doesn't fall in love again so that she won't be that hurt..but what he's watching now is she with another guy...
people don't give up easily just because they've no confidence to find another one as good as the one they're falling in love with...
people don't afraid of being alone..just afraid of being with many but still feel lonely...
you're my perspiration for i've been doing..you're my inspiration for what i've been writing when you're gone...
her ignorant love has given him an innocent hurt...
i'm not thinking of u..i'm just thinking of my past..but my past was full of you…
i've to think of my future to stop thinking of you...
i'm just thinking of my past..not u…but my past was full of u...
being emo doesn't mean being regret for what i've lost -- but for what i shouldn't have owned what i've lost
being senseless is the only medicine of being emo...
you'll never know how precious it is until you lose it..you'll never know how heavy it feels until you let it go...
you'll never know how bad you've treated people after knowing how good people have treated you...
fishes never cry or they cry all the time...or maybe they're always swimming in their own tears...
fishes.swim.in.their.own.tears -- they.live.in.their.own.hurt
big.eyes.gold.fish.is the most.emo.creature.ever -- no.one.knows.she.has.been.crying.&.living.in.her.own.tears
u.said.our.world.is.small.and.we.could.meet.easily -- yet.it.isn't.that.small.anymore.since.we've.been.avoiding
u:'our.world.IS.small,we.could.meet.again.easily' -- i:'our.worlds.ARE.very.tiny.but.we're.in.different.worlds'
this.tiny.world.will.never.meet.two.persons.from.two.different.worlds -- this.big.world.will.only.meet.two.persons.from.the.same.world
uncontrolled.broken.heart.falls.in.love.easily -- controlled.broken.heart.loves.in.fall.easily
u.never.broken.heart,but.just.empty.heart --
i.never.both,but.u've.just.left.me.a.senseless.heart
why.didn't.u.kill.me.in.my.sleep.in.stead.of.in.my.dream? -- since.it.doesn't.hurt
i'm.giving.up.what.i've.been.giving.out -- it.might.sound.like.an.excuse.but.it.sounds.more.like.a.relief..
i'm.tired.of.giving.out..it's.time.to.give.up…
this.world.is.very.big.&.we're.gonna.heading.to.the.corner.that.we.belong -- if.we're.lucky.enough.to.meet.again.at.the.same.corner.
in.this.big.land,then.there.is.where.our.spark.begins..
after.knowing.she.has.found.the.love.that.she.deserves..he.is.now.glad.&.willing.to.deserve.the.hurt.she.gave.earlier...
he.feels.he.deserves.for.the.hurt.when.he.sees.she.has.gotten.the.love.that.she.deserves…
if.u.have.found.the.love.that.u.deserve,i.deserve.the.hurt.u.gave.earlier...
maybe.appreciation.is.the.lesson..
maybe.giving.up.the.lesson..
maybe.giving.up.is.a.kind.of.appreciation...
never.afraid.of.losing -- just.afraid.of.regretting.for.the.lost..
when.u.went.away..don't.ever.turn.back.to.me.since.it.hurts.him…
i've.been.trying.to.give.up.what.i've.been.giving.out,but.it.always.gets.back.to.me.when.i'm.weak.again...
empty.heart.beats.for.love..emo.heart.bleeds.for.hurt..
being.senseless.so.that.i.won't.know.what's.the.feeling.of.loosing.all.my.blood.from.my.wrist..
it.seems.like.a.freedom.for.u...but.it.could.be.a.kind.of.betrayal.for.somebody...u.never.know.this......
u.never.realise.u're.doing.what.u.said.u'll.never.do...only.time.will.remind.u.what.u've.done.to.someone.&.urself.......
having.the.gut.to.say.sorry.for.ur.fault..why.don't.u've.the.gut.to.restore.what.u've.lost,what.u've.caused...
he.is.falling.in.hurt..she.is.hurting.in.love..they.are.loving.in.fall...
you.are.falling.in.love..i.am.loving.in.hurt..we.are.hurting.in.fall...
'some'.people.heal.their.hurt.with.love...but.'emos'.people.heal.theirs.with.senseless...
the.medicine.of.hurt,being.loved.or.being.senseless -- 'emos'.is.just.a.reversed.spelling.of.'some'...
senseless.heart.is.meant.to.be.senseless.towards.hurt..yet,it.becomes.senseless.towards.love.either...
u're.not.the.one.u.used.to.be.anymore... ur.lie.and.betrayal.is.what.i.saw...
i.don't.make.you.choose.him...but.i.do.make.you.regret.of.losing.him....
you're no different from others -- i thought u'd be the one
we're.just.from.the.different.road.string -- it's.just.the.matter.of.she.deserves.him..
we're.just.from.the.different.road.string -- deserve.better.than.better..
u.left.me.helpless..u.let.me.reckless - my.sky.never.cloudless..u.made.me.senseless -
u.never.seem.to.care..when.i'm.there...
doin.smtg.for.nothing...doin.nothing.for.smtg.. -- u.jz.don.care.anymore..u.din.care.at.all....
done.everythg.bt.gtting.nthing... -- mayb.i.should.stop.doin.it...mayb.should.have.stopped.doin....
no.place.to.hide..there's.a.conner.to.cry..
it.hurts.when.i.think.of.you -- it.bleeds.when.i.see.you
depreciation.comes.after.appreciation
-- to be continue --
